23 and 1

I am 23 weeks pregnant. That is so hard to say, harder than I thought it would be. Technically, 23 weeks and 1 day pregnant. In the beginning I didn’t understand why everyone on the apps were so specific and always included the days – now I do. It is because every moment of this…

flowers

I used to walk by this garden every day on my way to New York for grad school. There were days that I would rush past it without a second glance and then there were days that something compelled me to stop. Maybe it was the old woman that I would sometimes see tending to…

estranged

I noticed the other day that when I went to you it didn’t feel as it had before. I didn’t feel it. I didn’t feel like this place was a part of me as it always had been. It felt cold and distant –something unknown- separate from me. I sat in my car readying myself…

time lapsed

I always want to write when I have no time it’s like the words flow through my mind onnecting – forming poetry that disconnects me from my current reality I always want to write when I have no time it’s like the urge to escape is unbounding leaving my tired mind pulsing, anting, waiting for…

the blank page

I have sat down to write everyday this past week and every day I have stared at a blank page. The page’s lines taunting my unmoving hand, judging it’s silence. My heart beats chaning from a steady rhythm to a slow thump. After an hour I closed the book – unable to stare any longer…

#letsmakehomonormativeathing

We were sitting there, talking, well gossiping really, as we have done for 11 years (side note I am so proud of this powerful supportive female friendship) now and for the first time ever I slipped into a completely homonormative – that’s right you read that correctly – homonormative way of thinking with a straight…